you guys have probably noticed my lack of posts lately and i apologize for that. My life has suddenly become very chaotic and everything just seems as if it is falling apart. I have made a quite a few awful decisions in the past couple of months and I just don’t know what to do anymore. 

I got my heart broken by a guy who I thought would never hurt me. And i know, i know. “i’m just a teenage girl who feels too much and should just get over it because highschool relationships are doomed to fail” well no, i do not need to hear that anymore. call me stupid or naive or gullible but i actually believed him when he said he wouldnt leave. I just shut myself down for a while and stopped feeling anything towards anyone because that is how i deal with things. Its an awful way to exist. Basically i am kinda just stuck in this in between place of feeling too much and nothing all at the same time. 

I dont really know what i am trying to accomplish with this post but i just wanted to say sorry for not posting as much and i really needed to get all of this off my chest. 

if you read up till here then thank you <3 I hope you have a wonderful day/night ~

(Source: thefeelingsyouthoughtyouforgot)